Meri REEHAI

Meri REEHAI 

Deliverance Retreat: 2023 and 2024

“Give Wings To Your Dreams!”

“Submit yourselves, then to God. Resist the devil and he will flee from you.”

JAMES 4:7

(Bringing it to your notice that this blog consists the spiritual-testimonial information of the year 2023 and 2024 which is being posted lately in 2024)

Hello Readers!!! 

Kaise hain aap sab?

I hope y’all are safe & sound. 

Blogging like after 4 years…okay, so this is massive, right? 

YES. 

Today I’ve a lot to share about REEHAI Retreat. 

Since a year I was planning to attend this retreat & it was this year (here, 2023) which happened possible. Reehai retreat took place in St. Paul Institute, Indore from 11-13 Nov 2023. 

So, what’s the reason behind my sudden blogging after years..???

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Hello you! Praise The Lord! 

Welcome to My Sharing — My Testimony — “Meri REEHAI”! 

“MY ENCOUNTER WITH JESUS!”

Aisa nahi hai ki waha pe mauka nahi mila…I was being too shy to share the mic on stage. Throwing my shyness aside, I decided to go on to the stage and speak up about my experience but, BINGO! Just when I made up my mind to share the testimony, it was then the program was at the conclusion. Aur apni lajja ke kaaran sirf regret karne ke alawa kuch nahi ho paya….. I sighed. 

As I was journaling about this Retreat in my diary, suddenly a thought popped up in my mind to why not blog out everything? 

And doston here we are….WOHOOoooo!!!

DAY 1 

11th November 2023 (Saturday) 

Sabse pehle, we arrived at the location and did registration. After that we got our accommodation, went for lunch then got ready for the program. The program started with some action song, lightening of the lamp & beautiful prayer dance. Father guided us with some instructions, rules & regulations and then we hopped towards the Tea Break. 

Uske baad, we had our first Session scheduled jisme Father explained us about what Reehai is. 

It defines release, discharge & freedom. 

The goal of Reehai is to: “GIVE WINGS TO YOUR DREAMS!” 

As James 4:7 says, “Submit yourselves, then to God. Resist the devil and he will flee from you.”

Subsequently, it was the time when we did Rosary, and here comes the main climax of the day: 

The ADORATION!

which happened so beautifully to me!!!! Kyonki, kyonki, kyonki…..I cried. Yes, I weeped just like how a baby cries wo bhi bohot zyada. 

I used to wonder that how can somebody cry during Adoration in front of so many people but it was then that day I was lessoned, and you know what, I just did not care at that particular special moment about who’s sitting near by, who all are watching me, how am I crying, am i distracting or entertaining, what others gonna think, is this too much? 

Nope. 

All I cared was, that I, Anne Ritu Xaxa, a sinner is sitting in front of The Holy Eucharist….surrendering myself, worshipping Lord, celebrating his love with His Chosen Ones, singing “YESHU, AAJA! YESHU, AAJA!” 

The reason behind my weeping was not about my burdens, suffering or any sort of pain & difficulty I’ve been facing through. It was all about the eternal love which my Lord showed up to me. Every now and then I used to complain about, “Why me, Lord? I’m a sinner.” 

To this He said, “Behold, I am with you always, even to the end of the age.”

Even if I cried earlier during previous Healing Prayer & Adoration, the reason behind my grief used to be about my problems that why am I suffering through this pain, anxiety and depression. Why did Lord chose me for this heavy burden. But this time, it was all different as that day I longed for Christ’s love. I wanted HIM in me. And then I came to know why Lord chose me.  

Matthew 7:7-11 : “Ask and it will be given to you; seek and you will find; knock and the door will be opened to you. For everyone who asks receives; the one who seeks finds; and to the one who knocks, the door will be opened.”

The only best I could’ve asked for is the Gift of Holy Spirit; the best to search for is the way, the truth & the life: Jesus; and knocking door to receive blessings welcoming Jesus in my heart. 

This is all I need. I just wanted that precious conversation to happen regardless of sorrowing for worldly desires. 

And I truly believe that what I asked, searched, & knocked for…have achieved! 

I met Jesus. Had a great communication with HIM. 

After Adoration, we had dinner and then proceeded towards Taizé Prayer. 

Taizé Prayer consists of frequent repetition of Song(s) or Chants, Psalm, Response, Scripture, Intercession and Silent Meditation filled with Christ’s presence around inviting us to dwell in the serene environment leading to peace & calmness. 

I just love the way how it makes you feel tranquil with personal - silent prayer! 

What a lovely proximate meeting with Jesus. 

Subsequently, we had a meeting for the next day to lead a morning Praise & Worship which was to be conducted by Jhabua & Ujjain Diocese. And we had a good night. 

DAY 2

12th November 2023 (Sunday)

The next day was terrifying as we weren’t prepared for the Morning Prayer ki kaise kya karna hai! We had bohot saara tension, ghabrahat and fear. Panicking every now and then! 

We recited a Hail Mary and surrendered ourselves to the Lord and believed in the Gift and Power of Holy Spirit. 

Humlog Prayer start kiye, sab kuch achha chal raha tha…Bhaiya - Didi initiated the Holy Spirit Song, Psalm and reciting prayers. Prachi and Pragya Didi began with Thanksgiving and Praise & Worship and…..It was then during the Intercession, when Pragya Didi passed me her mic to lead the prayer and I gave her the most of my scariest look….ki mai kaise karungi??!!

Bina waqt zaaya kiye maine mic liya, closed my eyes and prayed to the Lord. And we sang the song — “Teri Stuti Main Karu!”  

Humein nahi malum ki kaise kya gaaye…bas Prachi, Nandini aur mai gaa diye!

Well, everything did went nice as we received a good feedback. Hihihihi

The next Session was about the Holy Confession. Father described three important things about it that we must be ensure about before the Confession. 

1. AWARENESS (I am a sinner, I must confess.) 
2. DECISION (Today, I’ll do Confession.)
3. BLESSINGS — Holy Spirit (Lord’s Blessings.)

At the time of Adoration, I prepared for my Confession. I already did the Confession nicely 5 days ago but wanted to do it again to gain that purity and power of Christ. So, I just sat down on the floor with my diary and took a long vertical page & looked up towards the Holy Eucharist. I started writing all my deeds…to be clear with…sins, okay; and don’t know how I end up filling the entire page both front and backside in small handwriting and I was like, “Oh, I — the sinner! Baap re, Paapi manushya!” 

Well…nothing bothered me about what Father’s gonna think about this 5 day sin or a whole lifelong trespass. 

Also, we were provided with a paper on which few questions were printed about how to do Confession and that really helped. I prepared myself completely and went for the Counseling first. The way Father explained everything was so beautiful that I was about to cry; I did Confession and he motivated me about everything which I was depressed of. 

I literally cried my heart out and grasped the eternal love of Christ. 

Then we commenced the Deliverance Prayer — The Inner Healing. 

We all stood still, eyes closed…praying while the hands were opened wide. 

It was my turn to be healed. 

First of all I was scared. 

Scared, Why? 

Afraid of falling. 

I closed my eyes. Father came to pray for me, he anointed me with Holy Oil and when he made the Sign Of The Cross on my forehead with it, my body shivered…as if I was in Southern Hemisphere. The complete vision changed in front of me. All of a sudden, a light beamed over me and I could see nothing but all I could see in that light was Jesus, standing in front holding me; HIS hands over my head talking to me saying, 

“Don’t be afraid, I’m with you always. I’ll not let you fall.” 

I opened my eyes to see like what did just happen. 

Father was praying. 

I closed my eyes again: saw the light and Jesus was still there, smiling.

I saw the doors of the Heaven open slowly. 

I must say that the whole time when Father prayed, my body shivered completely. I had goosebumps. I felt blessings healing me. I could feel the sensation of areas I got sprain or nerve spasm all over my body. Each part of my legs, back & spine where I had my wound, vibrated. From head to toe, I felt the anointing and it did happened!

Even though I fail through my circumstances, when I cry, surround myself with guilt, stress, tension, anxiety, or depression, no matter what am I facing, Jesus always stood beside me holding my hand. 

HE never left. 

When I got no answers to my prayer, it was me who questioned HIM, HIS love, the faith & doubted HIM. Then too…HE loves me. HE forgives. HE calls each one of us to come to HIM. 

There’s another beautiful vision I saw during the Holy Mass. It was the moment during The Eucharistic Prayer when the Priest lifted up The Bread, The Holy Sacrament. 

I saw Jesus holding The Bread with His 12 Disciples…saying, 

                        

"TAKE THIS, ALL OF YOU, AND EAT OF IT,

FOR THIS IS MY BODY,

WHICH WILL BE GIVEN UP FOR YOU."

                                       

First thing I did was to clear my eyesight as what I watched is unrealistically magical. 

I was shocked. 

I had goosebumps. 

My body was shivering. 

It all seemed to be dreamy as if I was in Heaven. 

I could see everything very clear with my naked eye. 

And that’s what made me realize the importance of The Holy Eucharist.

Then I saw Jesus lifting the Chalice — The Wine —- The Blood, saying,     

“TAKE THIS, ALL OF YOU, AND DRINK FROM IT, 

FOR THIS IS THE CHALICE OF MY BLOOD,

THE BLOOD OF THE NEW AND ETERNAL COVENANT,

WHICH WILL BE POURED OUT FOR YOU AND FOR MANY 

FOR THE FORGIVENESS OF SINS. 

DO THIS IN MEMORY OF ME.”  

I was crying. I must say that I’ve never seen such a beautiful, soothing and awesome vision ever happen to me. I still remember that special moment. And you know what, throughout this Reehai what I received is Love, Blessings, Inner Healing, Answers to my Question, Gift Of Holy Spirit & Miracles. 

As now from that time, whenever I attend The Holy Mass…all I do is weep. ‘Cause now I know the actual vision, the actual surrounding & environment during The Holy Communion. It just completely changes the present sight. I truly came to know about the meaning of entire Holy Mass. 

When you will know the true importance of it, you won’t be able to stand still…you’ll cry, you’ll weep out loud, you’ll be amazed looking at Jesus that how the glory and worship honors the Christ’s immense love & presence. 

That night, I had the best sleep and felt that I am the most happiest and luckiest girl. 

HE loves me, you and everyone. 

HE chose me regardless of my sins. 

DAY 3

13th November 2023 (Monday)

Sadly, the last day. 

We were not ready to wind-up the powerful environment. But had no other option to just say goodbye. 

 

Throughout the whole retreat, I didn't charge my phone as Lord was charging me. I was so busy that almost forgot that I own a mobile. My jacket tangling, bottle roaming, mobile and diary kept no where. As all my attention belonged to Lord.  

Food was yum. Chicken and 3 Rasgulla to the rescue for a good appetite. 

I too wanted to give the witnessing, sharing and testimony but the power of my introversion just slapped me. 

That's okay. 

Here I am with my witnessing! 

And you know what I went this year 2024, as well. 

I attended this year's REEHAI too. 2023 made me jump into 2024. 

Every part of the retreat renewed me!

(Reehai 2024)

"YOU CAN RECEIVE INNER HEALING THROUGH FULLY STRONG CONFESSION!"

I had my Counselling, Confession, Adoration, beautiful Holy Mass, Rosary, Taize Prayer, Praise & Worship and Session Talks. 

(Taize Prayer)

And surely I received many blessings and Holy Spirit. Each time I asked something, my body shivered from head to toe and got goosebumps with rise & fall body temperature. 

Sab magic hi to hai! 

JESUS IS MIRACLE!

Having Jesus in my life is a true blessing --- a real miracle! 

With this, I wind-up with my sharing now. 

I had so much to share...so I exhaled it out and still have a lot inhaled inside. All positivity and gratitude. 

"Aur haan, mujhe REEHAI mili hai! 

Sach mein! 

I am released and relieved from my past!' 

Thank you Jesus. 

Praise The Lord. 

Alleluia.  

Thank you readers for your precious time. :)

With lots of love,

ANNE RITU XAXA

(your Annemation)

XOXO from XAXA!